Heloo..
it's been a long long time..
this place is kinda like my secret place, when my mouth can't say what i wanna say..ssshht
ok, let me tell you some of my.. my feels..my stories..
first at all, i finally brave enough to leave music industry, Intan, who had been with me about 3 years and know all.. she used to encourage me to leave but at that time i didn't.. i was not tthat brave. hehe..
i thought i was success enough in music with Aiu, I love her till our little problems..hehe
ya, i decided to leave my positions, i throw aside my pride.. i finally had more encourage.. i felt so sad at first.. and sometime i still miss them.. everyone will wonder why??? if people hear my name they will "oh yaa, that's Helen Lauw, Aiu.. you know?", "oh ya! Helen is Aiu, Aiu is Helen"
a loooottt of memories... im so thankful for it..
here is finally i open my new brand of me.. don't ask me what are you now?? im still sell "Trust and Love" hehehehehe.. ya i am a personal assistant.. and im so proud.. why???????
"what is it that can make you leave music and so proud and look so happier now, Len??"
Ya I know you guys, thats your question, right??
2019, my friend just told me that her friend is looking for a Personal Assistant, so she told me and said "you better try it", then with all my pride (hahaha) i rejected it, bcos Im so enjoying my work, i had fun and got big paid, also i got my pride..hehehehe
then pandemic come, and all my saving is gone.. suddenly at that time i remember that and i called my friend and i asked her about that job and she helps and she said "Ok, I hope she can reply my msg as soon as possible ya, bcos she is so busy, sometime if i sent a msg in the morning she will replies in the evening or even in the next day" and my thought "oh well, ok.. is she that so busy??"
short story, I work with her friend now which is she is now my Boss. But she is not only just a Boss, hmm I think I love to call her my mentor, role model, leader.. You know? I'm so "wow, who is she? why she so inspire me? what makes her like that?" that's what i thought in the first day i work with her.. her eyes, i see defferent from others, her voice, her voice is something i wish i could have from my sister but just realized i haven't hahaha, yaa i wish i could have to hear a voice just like her voice from my mama or friends that i don't have.. still more that i just confued how to tell you guys..
time goes by.. more and more she inspire me.. just like my old post (hmm i think i deleted it alr hahaha) i ever told you guys that i don't like motivator people but now, i want to show to all people out there that I have one! and I love her.. so macha..
i don't care about her devil side, we are all human btw.. if she is a god i might worship her, right hahaha that's why i really don't carr about her devil side or her bad side..
i don't know how to tell you why im so motivate, really..
but i promise myself to always transparent', to always sincere and don't wanna give a lie to her..
she opened my other mind, she gives me good impact even more (i don't know she knows it or not, but she always say that she never did something to inspire people in adv, it just flow like what she is) .
when i was 12, i had a dream.. I wanted to make a concert for Aiu, and gratefuly I did. now my dream is.. i want to show to all the people out there that here we have NC, i hope when people lose their direction, lose theiir mind, lose their hope, when people feel useless, when they feel unmotivate, when they seek for motivation, here we have NC with her soft and calm voice where when you hear it you really feel so calm and like "ok its ok, you will be ok, you can get through this, be strong"even when you only hear her voice!!!! Believe me!! (oh don't, believe in god, not me.. hahahahahaha)
here, 26 helen, i have that dream..
i will try my best..
i thougt Im so sial di pandemi ini.. but ternyata im so grateful, i dont wanna change anything, i thought if ga ada pandemi kayaknya ga ketemu NC..
disini harus dibuang jauh2 pride yang dulu, mungkin ditempat dulu helen punya posisi dan punya kuasa lebih, tapi disni helen bener2 jadi seseorang yang baru, dimulai dari 0 lagi. walau kadang suka sebel sama temen kerja yang mungkin kalo kejadiannya itu di musik, helen udah ga mau pakai dia lagi, ill cut out.. dan helen ga akan pernah biarin siapapun bentak2 helen, tapi ternyata disini bener2 belajar hal baru, belajar sabar dan tahan emosi. satu hal, helen selalu ingat "ilmu padi, semakin berisi semakin merunduk" atau bahasa lebih halusnya "yang waras diem!" ehehehehehe even dari segi income, ga fair juga kalo helen banding2n karena jelas beda industri..
pokoknya disini bener2 berproses, belajar hal baru, and that' what i grateful for..
oh iya, mau pamer ah logonya muehehehehehehe..
logonya ini melambangkan kelembutan, elegan dan original , eh apasih? ya pokoknya sesuatu yang original yang ga dibuat2, apa adanya.. duh apa dong ? bahasa yang lebih enak dari original?
